kameron

how cute is she??

one way or the other...

she's baaack...and one way or the other she's gonna get burned.

Jeremiah 29:11
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

3 wonderful years

At last my love has come along
My lonely days are over
And life is like a song
At last the skies above are blue
And my heart was wrapped up in clover
The night I looked at you
I found a dream that I can speak to
A dream that I could call my own
I found a thrill to press my cheek to
A thrill that I have never known
You smiled, and then the spell was cast
And here we are in heaven
And you are mine at last

happy 3rd, love!

what is it?

i've come to a place in my life where i feel very much in limbo. i'm not sure what i feel i'm missing. it's not like there's some gaping hole in my life. i've got God, my husband, my family, some friends left and i can't figure out why i feel so weird.

i love music and i love when i find a song that expresses the way i feel when i can't find the words myself. for some reason mutemath reminds me so much of guatemala. i'm listening to them right now and this song just happens to be perfect for how i'm feeling:

Come on can’t I dream for one day / There’s nothing that can’t be done / But how long should it take somebody / Before they can be someone / ‘Cause I know there’s got to be another level / Somewhere closer to the other side / And I’m feeling like it’s now or never / Can I break the spell of the typical / I’ve lived through my share of misfortune / And I’ve worked in the blazing sun / But how long should it take somebody / Before they can be someone. / Cause I know there’s got to be another level / Somewhere closer to the other side / And I’m feeling like it’s now or never. / Can I break the spell of the typical. / The typicalI’m just the typical / Can I break the spell of the typical / Because it’s dragging me down / I’d like to know about when / When does it all turn around

babies, babies, babies!

it seems as though some those closest to me feel the need to tell me to start having babies right now. it's not that i don't want to have children, it's that i'm being selfish! i love the time i share with my husband. we can travel anywhere without any concern about the baby we have to care for. i don't necessarily think there's a "perfect" time to have kids, but i do feel there's an "ideal" time. i want to be sure we can financially support a family and still go on vacations. i feel like the best i can do right now is be patient and use wisdom. i want my husband to be ready as much as i am. i know kids are a tremendous blessing and i'll be so excited when the time comes, but i don't feel the need to rush it. i've been married for 3 years and for some reason, people think that's long enough and we need to start a family...i feel like a stinkin newlywed! i know i'm 24, but that doesn't mean i'm ancient! i'm not past my child-bearing years...it'll happen soon enough, but until then, i'm happy where i am. :)

thanks for lettin me rant!

Someone call the psych ward...

this lady's on the loose! i stole this from someone else's blog, but it made me so angry i thought i would share it with that one taiwanese kid.

peace out.

slow down for cryin out loud!

do you ever notice how fast your life flies by? it's crazy! it's already april of 2006. those things that have always seemed so far in the distance seem to always be days away now. i have been graduated from high school for almost 6 years! crap, i'm getting old. i'm going to be 25 this year. if you think back over your childhood, doesn't it seem like that time went sooo slow? i remember thinking days would never end, that teachers lived only to torture me and force me to sit at my desk until i died. now i wish i could make time slow down. i think i've talked about this on here before...i need some new material.

anyway, lorin and i went to see jerry seinfeld a couple of weeks ago...he was hilarious! i didn't stop laughing once. it was fun...thanks, neil!

joy!

i'm so excited!! my wonderful friend joy is getting married tomorrow! it's going to be a beautiful day. she and matt are so great ...they are stinkin hilarious together! anyone who has spent any length of time with them knows how much fun they are.

joy, if you are reading this, i pray only God's very best for you and matt in your new life together. i hope you know how much your friendship means to me. i know tonight and tomorrow are going to be crazy hectic, so i'll just say now that i truly believe you and i crossed paths the way we did for a reason. i'm so happy for you! you've worked so hard to make this day perfect and i know it will be. i'm praying for you!! love ya!

oh...and, amy...you're next!!

blardy blar-blar

i love that saying. and i love lexi for saying it.

tonight is bab nite. should be good.

i'm probably the only person who is ever going to read this. except for maybe some random taiwanese kid who has nothing better to do. sorry, taiwan, i got nothin.

Pressy

my sister sent me some pictures of my mom's dog preston...we call him pressy for short. he is the sweetest, squishiest dog ever.

nothing

i'm not really sure why i'm even updating this thing because i have nothing to write about.

ummm....i really have nothing. you know how you read someone's blog and they're like, "i don't really have anything to write about..." but then they end up writing a whole paragraph on some random topic? i do that.

refuge and jr. refuge went great last night. i love the new seating set-up. i love the new lighting. i love that we can haze again. it felt good. the energy was good, p&w was awesome, mike did a great job. i am so excited to see where God is taking us. this generation is very different than the ones before it. i feel myself loving them more and more. i've never seen so much hurt. if we can be a haven for them, i'll do anything to make it happen. we've got an amazing team. the leaders in refuge are the best in the world. i love them all. it's like they're all experts at what they do. they do it in excellence and they do it for others, not themselves. that's the way it should be. we're just gonna keep getting better.

this is totally off topic, but i'm all over the place today. my husband and i recently started tivo-ing ed young's program. it's so cool. once i start, i can't stop watching. if you get the chance, watch it, you'll be intrigued.

k, kiddies, that's it for now!

wind

whoa, holy majoley, the wind was psychotic last night. i think i heard that it was like 60 mph. it was so loud it kept waking me up. when i finally woke up to get ready for work, i looked outside and our trashcan was flying down the street! i was in my pajamas, so i wasn't about to be the nutso neighbor chasing down an awol trashcan. i got ready and decided before i left that i'd go get the dumb thing. it was so stinkin windy! i was running down the road fighting the wind and i cannot even imagine how ridiculous i looked. it was like walking against a wall. try to picture it. you'll laugh...i did.

lauren = 400lbs

my wonderful hubby got me an elliptical trainer for valentine's day. i've wanted one for a really long time, so i was thrilled! he put it together last night so i could use it this morning. so, i got up half an hour early and started my workout. i was panting like a dog i was so short of breath. you would have thought i weighed 400 pounds! once i was done, i ran upstairs to take a shower, cause....ew. anyway, when i got in the shower, i was so dizzy i almost passed out like 3 times! i'm really seriously out of shape!

valentine's day

this day has always been kind of an enigma for me. i never really understood the concept. as a kid, you buy valentines, sign them, seal them, and put them in each others decorated boxes. back then the only significance i saw in it was who got the most cards. it was fun. but as i got older the idea of it changed. ok, so this is the day you do something special for the one you love. see...the only thing is, valentine's day will never convince me of something i'm already sure of. my husband does such an amazing job of letting me know how much he loves me. he does it everyday. don't get me wrong, who doesn't like feeling special on this lovers holiday? but the goal should be to make sure that person you've committed to feels special everyday. i guess my point is, i don't need some fancy holiday to prove how much i'm loved. today, i want to be at home, not in some fancy shmancy restaurant, with my husband. i want to cook dinner together. that's all i want. maybe i'm weird, but just being with him is enough for me. i hope i don't sound like a scrooge. i'm just thankful i've been blessed with an amazingly generous, caring, romantic, loving, handsome, sweet husband who shows me everyday how much he loves me. i love me some lorin foster.

relationships

i find it strange how relationships can change over time. it's not always intentional. sometimes it just happens. distance, be it geographical or emotional, causes a gap between people that may have at one point been close. as much as i wish that wouldn't happen, it does. the love is always there, but maybe the relationship has been neglected. i guess that's the way our relationship with God is. you could have at one point been so close to God you could hear His heartbeat, but somehow, over time, the relationship was neglected...only the one being neglectful is always us. He still loves us with all of His heart and it's not that we've stopped loving Him, but we don't put the time in to get to know Him more. just something i was thinking about...

great driver

i went to a baby shower on sunday. on my way there i got stuck behind someone going kind of slow and i was seriously tailing them. as we were driving, i realized they were also going to the baby shower. i felt awful! i apologized and we laughed it off. well, yesterday i was pulling into giant eagle and as i was turning into a parking space, i realized the person on the right hand side had their back door open. i slowed down after almost crushing them and thought i had better apologize to this poor lady trying to put her child into his car seat. as i was getting out i heard my friend joy (who was meeting me there) talking to the lady and i thought she must really be mad because she's complaining to my friend! as i came around the car i saw that it was the same person i was tailing on the way to the shower! i barely ever see this person and in less than one week, i almost wrecked into her twice!!!

oh...and hi, dad!!

just like Him

isn't it just like God to provide exactly what you need when you need it? yesterday was what i needed. He's so faithful. isn't it great that no matter how much we fail He stays faithful. we don't deserve it in the least bit, but He's always right there...even in the small things. i'm not going to get into details, but my dad called me yesterday and said the things i needed to hear and he doesn't even know it. i love that!

my cakes 2

i had to split the posts...

here's another pic of lorin's b-day cake.

these are some of the cookies kelli and i made for Christmas!

this was my last cake for course 3. (it got a little smashed in the car.) it took 4 hours to make the roses and leaves for this cake.

let me know what you think!

my cakes

here are some pics of the cakes i have made over the past 3 months:

this was my very first cake. it's looks weird. it looked better in person - ask josh.

this was a cake from course 2. it took about 9 hours to make all of the flowers on the cake.

this is the cake i made for lorin's birthday.